a still small voice

Fall in love with being with yourself, like truly by yourself.

No phone. no music. No thinking about other people.

Dare.

Dare to be alone with you and your thoughts only.

Don't think about what you look like and what others would think of you in this moment.

Dare.

Dare to be fully present.

Soon you'll realize you can never be alone.

My thoughts don't seem to leave me alone- thinking of 1000 criticisms and ideas at once.

When will I learn to dare to be alone?

When will I learn to love that? To prefer that?

Because soon I'll learn that I can't be alone truly. And not because my thoughts run rampant, but because there's always something else there. Someone else there.

a still small voice

And this voice doesn't call in critiques, doesn't call in unfinished to-do lists, doesn't call out in anxiety.

It will be a still small voice calling in love and peace.

Will I be able to hear it?

Will it be a clear voice? Or will it be a clear, gentle presence?

A small light that yearns to burn brighter in my life, in a way it hasn't before to anyone else- a beautiful and unique light, yet never changing in its ways.

Lord I ask you to grant me the courage to listen to that small peace, to sense the light I must bring into this world whatever and wherever it may be or lead me. Give me the courage to fully know you are good and your calling is good. Help me be less concerned about what this good may look to others as long as it's in love. Help me to see and will the good of all as you did.

Amen

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